~* Happiness is a Warm Rag *~

Lol, the time-gap just keeps increasing, doesn't it?

2005-12-22T05:28:13Z

Sad...

Oh, did I mention I got my GM character? [GM] Phoenix, it is.

Yeah, it's been a while.

Dunno what else to say...

Anyway, I'm leaving for HongKong for a week-long vacation ^_^ Should be fun... Maybe I'll get some shopping done ^_^

My GOD, how long's it been? :)

2005-11-03T08:21:46Z

Three months???

Quite possibly!

I really should keep in touch more... But I hate logging in from work - nosey colleagues! >P

Anyway, just wanted to say Hello! I'm still alive! And still interested in what's going on with people :)

Glad to see I'm still on your friends lists :D

I Love you all! :)

OMG

2005-09-17T14:55:03Z

My brother turned THIRTEEN more that a WEEK ago, and I COULDN'T EVEN HAUL MY LAZY ASS OVER TO MY LJ TO CHRONICLE IT!!!!

I feel like a bad person.

/sob

OMGWTFLOL!!!

2005-08-28T08:48:57Z

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh, I haven't been back here in sooooooooo long!!!!

This is bad stuff!

My one link to humanity... I miss you all so much!

This is pointless.

So much stuff is happening, and is not happening.

The moodiness and uncertainty continues, along with healthy doses of hopelessness AS WELL AS hope (now THAT'S a weird combination!). I'm so exhausted, I can barely remember what I've done - and I'm scared of saying what I DO remember because what if I miss out something that's important? Gah!

My inbox overfloweth (I'm sure) and I'm scared to look at my Friends' page. Just TOO much going on... So please excuse me this once! :)

I SO feel like I need to get away from it all for while and sort some stuff out. But what, where and how? This sucks majorly (yeah, I know, as usual).

Oh yeah, I got into some MAJOR TROUBLE with the boss a while back. Sigh...

And I'm thinking of changing departments from community into customer service. It's just easier I think.

My GM character shows no signs of coming anytime soon :)

And the other new kid is starting to get farking IRRITATING.

But apart from that... I'm not really sure what to say. Right now what I'm doing is... *Juno Testing*... or some weird likeness thereof which has been given its name. I'm supposed to be logging into Sakray (the test server) and summoning items and testing whether they work properly or don't cause errors, or even exist. And as a side note, I'm supposed to be correcting the Engrish in their descriptions too :D So any new item descriptions you see (and possibly the old ones too) in inRO are possbly going to be from ME! :D (Or atleast hopefully they might be, if my vindictive colleagues don't decide to be vindictive, and vindictively sabotage my work in a vain attempt to put me down! Lolz, I'm just kidding of course, but THAT'S JUST THE KIND OF CRAZY THING YOU MIGHT DO YOU ASSHOLE!!!!! DON'T THINK I'M NOT ON TO YOU! ::looks around nervously:: Ehehehehehe... I didn't say that out loud, did I? :))

Hey! Atleast the insanity's back! Looks like I'm not all hopeless after all! :D

It does get a little exhausting though, day after day, sitting in that office. I don't like it. I want to be with my friends. I want to be with people who understand me, or at the very least tolerate me. I feel so weirdly alone... Is it too much to ask for people who would help me, or be there for me when I fall and help me get back up again, just like I would do for them?
I guess all I can do now is sit and wait....
What am I doing here? What am I good for at all? Is this even what I'm supposed to be doing? All of a sudden, I just don't know anymore... :*(

Okay.

2005-08-01T08:58:05Z

My tension is now palpable.

My DAD suddenly asks me why I'm so morose... THAT'S something... :)

"Rumours of my death have been greatly exaggerated"

2005-07-28T10:50:28Z

I don't know if you all have seen this in the news but yes, Mumbai, the city I live in, has experienced FLOODS on a scale not seen in about 50 years. Apparently the toll has been quite high (99 in the State last time I checked) and apart from that, things have been harrowing all around.

The good news is, I am okay :)

I know, I've been away for weeks and weeks (job was getting too busy) and I have NO idea how I'm ever going to catch up on everything, but I'm here now.

God, it's been so bad - rains for 2 days straight! Flood water EVERYWHERE, but no electricity, no running water, no phones, nothing. Roads were blocked, trains were stopped, and flights couldn't take off. Some people were stranded in their offices for upto 2 days!

And while my family suffered in the city, I was away on an office "picnic" with everyone, quite a ways from it all. We got held up there for an extra day, and it was terrible for us because we couldn't contact anyone - all mobiles/landlines in the city were down - but we knew what was going on because we could see the news on TV! (And our folks back home couldn't even do that)

Bad news all around...

But you gotta admire the resillience of the city though!

There are so many heroic stories emerging one by one. I just hope they all make it into the papers :*) Or maybe I'll post them here in a while...

Either way, I hope everyone is doing alright! :)

I HAVE finished reading HPHBP, so that's some news :)

I wanted to talk about how things are going otherwise with the job and everything, but I don't much feel like it now. Too many things happening. Gotta talk myself down from the cieling, in a way... :)

I was thinking of making a new journal called "My Life as a @#$%^&* GM!!!" or something to talk about all that separately (and believe me, if you were to spend a day as a GM, that line would make PERFECT sense!) but I need to talk myself down from the ceiling, like I said...

I've been out of my mind with worry... I need some hugs and comforting words! ::cries::

Ohhhhh Goddddd....

2005-07-17T12:30:25Z

Sorry for the complete absence, but I've been dead tired from... *work*... Atleast that's what they call it. :)

Anyway. Stuff has been happening.

I mostly spend my days sitting behind people and watching/commenting on what they're doing. :) I'm supposed to be Community GM, which means handling events (I did 2 already! :D Not by myself of course, but still.) and also the players to an extent (or atleast I hope so ::grins evilly and slams fist into palm:: >D). The guys actually asked me if I wanted to be on broadcast duty too (those are the ones who handle player questions in-game)! I mean, they KNOW I don't know CRAP about the game compared to what THEY know, but they said it was okay and that they needed someone who was "level headed" :D
I told 'em I wouldn't mind it if I had the time. I still have to see what exactly they need of me and establish myself a bit more firmly in the office before I take on anything that I can't handle.

::sigh:: I'm going to try and hash it out with a *certain* *someone* tomorrow... Hopefully all will go well and I will live to tell the tale... :)

So... Does anyone want to know what's up...?

2005-07-08T12:37:20Z

I GOT THE JOB! I GOT THE JOB!

EAT MY DUST FOO'S!!! I'M A GM!!!!!

:D

Ahem. Okay I'm calming down now.

Fact is, I'm now employed by Level Up Games as a Game Master (or "Game GUARDIAN" as my appointment letter states) so from now on, I might as well work for the CIA for all the info I'm going to be able to give ANYBODY about the job.

So shhhhh! It's a secwet!

K, here they are!

2005-07-01T13:00:10Z

So yeah. Since the last post this is what I've whipped up. To my international friends (as you ALL are) you probably won't even notice the time difference :) But here they are. I was thinking they would make good banners for people to put up as links to their LJ's on their Websites, profiles, etc. you know?

I really want your comments on this - what do you think? Colours? Sizes? Has someone else already done this, and it seems I'm just ripping them off? Tell me anything! I really want to hear it.

As of now, I've made only two, and they're both available in both sizes:

Also in the works are "I'm not as crazy as my LiveJournal seems to be"; "I AM as crazy as my LiveJournal seems to be"; "I'm a bigger LoTR Freak than my Livejournal seems to be" and pretty much everything else you might want (just ask) :) And of course it can all be done with "Blog/Xanga/DeadJournal" and the rest. :)

"I'm a lot more interesting than my LiveJournal seems"

2005-07-01T11:25:27Z

Just thought of that a day ago...

Thinking of making it into a banner or something and putting it up. But I have no idea what to make except for the text - what kind of background should there be? What kind of background could POSSIBLY make sense with text like that? Without looking like I just threw it together just to show off my Photoshop skills? (Oh, and did I mention I don't really HAVE any?)

Anyway. That's something to think about...

There're a ton of other lines I could use too of course, so that's something to consider as well.

falcon_animagus @ 2005-06-27T17:15:00

2005-06-27T11:49:44Z

Pope Benedict Declares Sex 'Unnatural'

Facing accusations that the Catholic Church unfairly condemns relations between two men, Pope Benedict XVI put an end to the Church's double-standard by banning sex between a man and woman as well. "We have long known that gay intercourse is disgusting and unnatural, it's time we recognize the same for straight sex," the Pope stated Friday afternoon.

The move is being hailed by progressives, Catholic and non-Catholic alike, as a major step towards equality in the Catholic Church. Lawrence Westerfield, spokeman for the pro-gay religious organization Freedom Association for Gays Observing Theology and Service (FAGOTS), told Burnout, "This is a huge step toward equality. It's about time straight people face the same oppression as gays."

The Vatican issued a formal press release which outlined the new policy for followers around the world. "God never intended for man to perform this insidious act. If God had wanted man to have sex to procreate, he would not have given mankind the gift of inseminatus artificialus (test-tube babies)." The release goes on to describe the Church's proposal for a chain of artificial insemination clinics in which descent, God-fearing Catholics can go to have children and not commit the sin of sex and end up in the fiery pits of Hell. In the clinics, DNA will be taken from the mother and father, merged into a stem cell through mitosis, a fetus will form, and then it will be nurtured in a bath of holy water and fed only by the blood and body of Christ (wine and bread) for nine months.

Some critics argue that feeding fetuses wine might induce what is known as "Fetal Alcohol Syndrome" which causes severe mental retardation among infants, but the Vatican does not seem worried. "That stuff is just a bunch of hocus-pocus nonsense, only a moron would believe in that garbage." stated a Vatican spokesman, "Some of the greatest Catholics in history were sons of mothers who drank. Columbus's mother drank, and look what he did. He discovered America. Did you discover America? No? Well maybe you could have if your mother had drank more alcohol while she was pregnant."

Pope Benedict plans to build the first fertility clinics in February of 2005. The clinics will be converted from old, mail-bombed Planned Parenthood facilities.

By A.C. Slater, Staff Writer

Ahahaha! What is this? :)

2005-06-27T07:19:45Z

Man! First that crazy old actress on the top floor dies (making my building World Famous In India ;)), then the actor in the building right next door (a married one, may I add) gets involved in a sex scandal, and now - DIAMONDS are washing up on shore right behind us?!!! :D

WE WILL LIVE ON FOR ALL OF ETERNITY!!!!

;D

falcon_animagus @ 2005-06-20T12:48:00

2005-06-20T07:42:14Z

So... What is it, just the CHANGE in weather that's making me feel all woozy and bad, or the weather itself? It's started raining now. I can remember feeling "bad" when it started to rain before, and missing the summer and all, but then what? Did I get over it and then feel badly when it stopped again? I can't IMAGINE it, but... it is *slightly* possible.
I'll have to keep track of this now...

A Brief Guide To Seasons in (My Part of) India

The Indian year is divided into 2 main seasons: Monsoon (lasting from around June to October), and Summer (from November to May).
Monsoon is an extremely wet time of year which brings about mixed feelings - on the one hand the greenery is something to behold! But on the other hand, that mush on your shoe when you stepped outside to go to work is quite another.
Summer is altogether much drier, and is further divided into 2 parts: Summer (warm, sweaty, vacation-time) and That-Time-That-For-Intents-And-Purposes-Looks-Like-Summer-Except-It's-A-Few-Degrees-Cooler (TTTFIFPLLSEIAFDC) so there really is no point in giving it a different name. Some people prefer to call it by the name "Vin-tur" but others feel it is unnecessary.

OMGIMGOINGTODIE!!!!!

2005-06-06T05:37:49Z

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Aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!

I have an interview with LUG (Level Up Games) tomorrow!!!

::dies::

::wakes up::

Well I can't be dead for an interview, can I?

:)

I think I'm going to explode...

...

2005-05-30T06:55:17Z

You know the thing that made me cry, really CRY?

The fact that that BEAUTIFUL scene at the end of Return of the Jedi when the Obiwan, Yoda and Anakin are standing together looking lovingly over the celebrating crowd is forever going to be connected to that- that- bastardization!

Don't get me wrong: the second part of the movie was great! It really did tie up lose ends and made a lot of sense as far as his heart-breaking descent into madness. But the first part was just a- well if the word basterdization didn't already pertain to something else... I'm going to have to think up a new word now :)

OMG! squeeeeeeee

2005-05-28T06:35:49Z

Ghost in The Shell Movie!!!!

Coming to my TV!

JUNE 4TH!!!!!

::dies::

Oh yeah, and my dad got me an mp3 player from Singapore for some reason. I think it's because of my first class in the exams. Whatever! :)

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

2005-05-28T06:30:37Z

Injuries I inflicted on myself during Star Wars III

by Owen Goodyear

1. Fractured index finger, right hand

Sustained in self-defence during the ghastly "banter" between Ewan McGregor and Hayden Christensen in the dogfight scene. The finger was merely badly sprained until I realised that McGregor, star of genuinely good movies such as Trainspotting, was being outacted by R2D2, the star-speckled and unconvincing backdrop and his own beard.

2. Dislocated kneecap, left leg

Caused by violent convulsions brought about by the scripting of the first love scene between Natalie Portman and Christensen. Current theories suggest that my knee was performing actions consistent with running away, out of the cinema, to another cinema in another land, where a better film might be playing. Sadly I was wedged into an Ewok-sized seat in a soulless Odeon box, hence the damage caused to my patella and surrounding tissue.

3. Undisclosed male-specific injuries

While the nature of these injuries is confidential, for fear of corrupting children, I can confirm that these were self-inflicted at a steadily increasing rate unpon the dawning realisation that even Natalie Portman could be made to look pasty-faced and unattractive, therefore removing much of the joy of being a heterosexual male.

4. Spiral fractures, both legs

Sustained while attempting, still wedged in the aforementioned seat of misery and disappointment, to perform the high-octane fight-scene acrobatics that Christopher Lee's character Count Dooku should have been engaged in had he, the film's only capable actor, not been killed within five seconds of appearing on-screen by that Christensen brat despite Dooku supposedly being a mighty warrior.

5. Severed left hand

Removed after the eleventh or twelfth lightsabre fight ending in someone getting their hand chopped off. It seemed to be the done thing.

6. Punctured lung

Caused by stabbing myself repeatedly in the chest to quell the rising urge to vote Republican, brought about by a reaction against the horribly ham-fisted political commentary in one or other of those tedious Council scenes.

7. Gouged eye, right

Lost during the dual lightsabre fights between McGregor, Christensen, McDiarmid and General Grievous, probably in the mistaken belief that no lightsabre battle could actually be actively boring and that therefore the problem must have lain with my own eyes.

8. Shattered pelvis

Thrown at the screen in a desperate yet futile attempt to prevent Hayden bastarding Christensen mouthing the agonisingly inane line "the best day of my life" on hearing that his illicit wife is up the duff.

9. Fractured skull (six places)

Prompted by Christensen's line "I'm overwhelmed", delivered in such wooden fashion that I slammed my head repeatedly into a nearby wall in order that I might suffer hallucinations from the cerebral damage and thus actually be overwhelmed. By something. Anything. The gap between the line's content and delivery was so great I was forced to redress the balance through the medium of cranial trauma.

10. Third-degree burns over 35% of my body

Self-inflicted during the scene where Anakin slides slowly towards the lava and catches fire; I was envious and wanted to die.

11. Severed self-respect

I paid to see this. I paid George Lucas to see this.

Spoiler Warning: plot or ending details above

falcon_animagus @ 2005-05-26T12:22:00

2005-05-26T06:52:49Z

Yeah, the rainbows really set the tone.

Well, great then!

2005-05-26T06:39:07Z

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Problem solved!

I don't think that Cactus place is going to call me back after all! So, yippee!

:|

I was still smiling when I walked out the door though. Maybe if I'd looked more "crestfallen" they might've taken pity on me and asked me back :)

Even More !!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-05-25T16:23:57Z

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Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh!!!

I just got my results off the 'net and it says I have a first class!!!

OMG!!!

Of course I'll only FULLY believe it when I see the marksheet in my hand :) But it's still pretty good!

I am OFFICIALLY a Bachelor of Physics, y'all!

:D

!!!!

2005-05-25T13:44:01Z

OMG! I actually got a call back from that place for an interview!!!!

...

2005-05-24T06:22:42Z

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So I got a call yesterday from the place I applied to for a job - Catus Communications, or something. From what I understood, they basically review documents for errors in spelling, grammar, scientific fact, etc. and correct them for clients (how cool is THAT?!). She sent me a "test" - a few passages to correct so they could evaluate my skills - which I HAVE sent back. So all I can do now is wait.

But I don't know what they expect of me, really. I mean, I think I heard her mention that it was a full-time job or something, but writing out documents all day long? Doesn't sound right. Of course I want the job. But I'm also nervous about it. She seemed really interested in my "marks" and things. But I've got really bad marks, and that is NO INDICATION of my skills and abilities! Oh well. I guess if they question me about it, I can tell them the same thing. And if they're really that interested in them and aren't willing to look past them (oh no, please I hope not!) then... they're losing a valuable member of the team!

I also applied to Ragnarok for the job as GJ. (I'd LOVE to be a GM, but as this point I'm not enough of an expert on the game.) They haven't written back yet. I really want to join that too! Because boy, would it be FUN! But I'm really nervous, because... This is an opportunity of a life-time! I CAN'T pass it up - I WANT to do it! But... Assuming I DO get the job at Cactus... How will I be able to work that out? I just WON'T be able to choose! Here on the one hand would be a job which I'd probably have a lot of fun doing (and I'd be associated with Rag!!!), and I'd LOVE to have on my résume but on the other hand is another job which would mean more corporate recognition and possibly a steady pay-check. And I'm not sixteen! I can't just do a job because it's "fun", I have to think about what it can do for me in terms of the "long-term" as well...

There is so much to think about...

Sigh... I hope it works out fine.

::sigh:: I need a place where I can just sit with about 50 of my girl-friends and just TALK abut stuff...

Oh my GOD!

2005-05-20T06:29:41Z

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Could stupidity GET any stupider?!

Ohhhh yeahhhh, everyone beware of the Big Bad Hindu, come to teach his dangerous, blasphemous ways of piety, good health and non-violence! Ways of the DEVIL they are! Not like our own extremely good ways of intolerance, persecution, and BURNING PEOPLE ALIVE to quench our own irrational fears!

Sure, honey. Go ahead. Do your little arm-waving, or foot-shaking, or snake-dancing, or whatever it is you thought up last Sunday when you fell asleep in Church. They'd certainly be comparable to the tried and tested methods of the ancient scholarly scriptures written over FIVE THOUSAND years ago, and still useful today!
We'll see how far it gets you. When your knees are so riddled with arthritis, you barely walk five steps. Oh yeah, I forgot! Your Jesus-approved Insurance Companies are gonna pay for the meds. But can they take the pain away and make you walk again?
But hey, it's not all bad! Atleast you can take comfort in the fact that the only reason those Hindu-loving contemporaries of yours are doing cartwheels on the grass, isn't because of their diet or proper Yogic exercises, but because of Devil Worship! Yes! Brought on by those evil peace-loving people who infiltrated their mind and polluted it with their disease!

Oh, and the by the way. Good to see how carefully you researched all the names of the asanas and all. That's a real meticulous mind you have there! Or maybe... We're in there already!

From too many people in my friendslist to name 'em all :)

2005-04-26T06:09:12Z

If there is at least one person in your life whom you consider a close friend, and whom you would not have met without the internet, post this sentence in your journal.

I did something scary today

2005-04-22T11:34:35Z

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I went back to my violin for the first time since JANUARY to check if it was still in tune...

AND IT WAS! Yay! :)

So now all that's left is to work up the courage and actually PLAY it... ::cowers in a corner::