Sad...



Oh, did I mention I got my GM character? [GM] Phoenix, it is.



Yeah, it's been a while.

Dunno what else to say...


Anyway, I'm leaving for HongKong for a week-long vacation ^_^ Should be fun... Maybe I'll get some shopping done ^_^

Three months???

Quite possibly!

I really should keep in touch more... But I hate logging in from work - nosey colleagues! >P

Anyway, just wanted to say Hello! I'm still alive! And still interested in what's going on with people :)

Glad to see I'm still on your friends lists :D



I Love you all! :)

My brother turned THIRTEEN more that a WEEK ago, and I COULDN'T EVEN HAUL MY LAZY ASS OVER TO MY LJ TO CHRONICLE IT!!!!



I feel like a bad person.

/sob

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh, I haven't been back here in sooooooooo long!!!!

This is bad stuff!


My one link to humanity... I miss you all so much!



This is pointless.

So much stuff is happening, and is not happening.

The moodiness and uncertainty continues, along with healthy doses of hopelessness AS WELL AS hope (now THAT'S a weird combination!). I'm so exhausted, I can barely remember what I've done - and I'm scared of saying what I DO remember because what if I miss out something that's important? Gah!

My inbox overfloweth (I'm sure) and I'm scared to look at my Friends' page. Just TOO much going on... So please excuse me this once! :)

I SO feel like I need to get away from it all for while and sort some stuff out. But what, where and how? This sucks majorly (yeah, I know, as usual).


Oh yeah, I got into some MAJOR TROUBLE with the boss a while back. Sigh...

And I'm thinking of changing departments from community into customer service. It's just easier I think.

My GM character shows no signs of coming anytime soon :)

And the other new kid is starting to get farking IRRITATING.


But apart from that... I'm not really sure what to say. Right now what I'm doing is... *Juno Testing*... or some weird likeness thereof which has been given its name. I'm supposed to be logging into Sakray (the test server) and summoning items and testing whether they work properly or don't cause errors, or even exist. And as a side note, I'm supposed to be correcting the Engrish in their descriptions too :D So any new item descriptions you see (and possibly the old ones too) in inRO are possbly going to be from ME! :D (Or atleast hopefully they might be, if my vindictive colleagues don't decide to be vindictive, and vindictively sabotage my work in a vain attempt to put me down! Lolz, I'm just kidding of course, but THAT'S JUST THE KIND OF CRAZY THING YOU MIGHT DO YOU ASSHOLE!!!!! DON'T THINK I'M NOT ON TO YOU! ::looks around nervously:: Ehehehehehe... I didn't say that out loud, did I? :))

Hey! Atleast the insanity's back! Looks like I'm not all hopeless after all! :D


It does get a little exhausting though, day after day, sitting in that office. I don't like it. I want to be with my friends. I want to be with people who understand me, or at the very least tolerate me. I feel so weirdly alone... Is it too much to ask for people who would help me, or be there for me when I fall and help me get back up again, just like I would do for them?
I guess all I can do now is sit and wait....
What am I doing here? What am I good for at all? Is this even what I'm supposed to be doing? All of a sudden, I just don't know anymore... :*(

My tension is now palpable.

My DAD suddenly asks me why I'm so morose... THAT'S something... :)

I got my first paycheck!!!

:D


I think I'll laminate it... :)

I don't know if you all have seen this in the news but yes, Mumbai, the city I live in, has experienced FLOODS on a scale not seen in about 50 years. Apparently the toll has been quite high (99 in the State last time I checked) and apart from that, things have been harrowing all around.

The good news is, I am okay :)

I know, I've been away for weeks and weeks (job was getting too busy) and I have NO idea how I'm ever going to catch up on everything, but I'm here now.

God, it's been so bad - rains for 2 days straight! Flood water EVERYWHERE, but no electricity, no running water, no phones, nothing. Roads were blocked, trains were stopped, and flights couldn't take off. Some people were stranded in their offices for upto 2 days!

And while my family suffered in the city, I was away on an office "picnic" with everyone, quite a ways from it all. We got held up there for an extra day, and it was terrible for us because we couldn't contact anyone - all mobiles/landlines in the city were down - but we knew what was going on because we could see the news on TV! (And our folks back home couldn't even do that)


Bad news all around...

But you gotta admire the resillience of the city though!

There are so many heroic stories emerging one by one. I just hope they all make it into the papers :*) Or maybe I'll post them here in a while...

Either way, I hope everyone is doing alright! :)

I HAVE finished reading HPHBP, so that's some news :)

I wanted to talk about how things are going otherwise with the job and everything, but I don't much feel like it now. Too many things happening. Gotta talk myself down from the cieling, in a way... :)

I was thinking of making a new journal called "My Life as a @#$%^&* GM!!!" or something to talk about all that separately (and believe me, if you were to spend a day as a GM, that line would make PERFECT sense!) but I need to talk myself down from the ceiling, like I said...


I've been out of my mind with worry... I need some hugs and comforting words! ::cries::

Sorry for the complete absence, but I've been dead tired from... *work*... Atleast that's what they call it. :)

Anyway. Stuff has been happening.

I mostly spend my days sitting behind people and watching/commenting on what they're doing. :) I'm supposed to be Community GM, which means handling events (I did 2 already! :D Not by myself of course, but still.) and also the players to an extent (or atleast I hope so ::grins evilly and slams fist into palm:: >D). The guys actually asked me if I wanted to be on broadcast duty too (those are the ones who handle player questions in-game)! I mean, they KNOW I don't know CRAP about the game compared to what THEY know, but they said it was okay and that they needed someone who was "level headed" :D
I told 'em I wouldn't mind it if I had the time. I still have to see what exactly they need of me and establish myself a bit more firmly in the office before I take on anything that I can't handle.


::sigh:: I'm going to try and hash it out with a *certain* *someone* tomorrow... Hopefully all will go well and I will live to tell the tale... :)

I GOT THE JOB! I GOT THE JOB!

EAT MY DUST FOO'S!!! I'M A GM!!!!!

:D

Ahem. Okay I'm calming down now.

Fact is, I'm now employed by Level Up Games as a Game Master (or "Game GUARDIAN" as my appointment letter states) so from now on, I might as well work for the CIA for all the info I'm going to be able to give ANYBODY about the job.

So shhhhh! It's a secwet!

So yeah. Since the last post this is what I've whipped up. To my international friends (as you ALL are) you probably won't even notice the time difference :) But here they are. I was thinking they would make good banners for people to put up as links to their LJ's on their Websites, profiles, etc. you know?

I really want your comments on this - what do you think? Colours? Sizes? Has someone else already done this, and it seems I'm just ripping them off? Tell me anything! I really want to hear it.

As of now, I've made only two, and they're both available in both sizes:





Also in the works are "I'm not as crazy as my LiveJournal seems to be"; "I AM as crazy as my LiveJournal seems to be"; "I'm a bigger LoTR Freak than my Livejournal seems to be" and pretty much everything else you might want (just ask) :) And of course it can all be done with "Blog/Xanga/DeadJournal" and the rest. :)

Just thought of that a day ago...

Thinking of making it into a banner or something and putting it up. But I have no idea what to make except for the text - what kind of background should there be? What kind of background could POSSIBLY make sense with text like that? Without looking like I just threw it together just to show off my Photoshop skills? (Oh, and did I mention I don't really HAVE any?)

Anyway. That's something to think about...

There're a ton of other lines I could use too of course, so that's something to consider as well.

Man! First that crazy old actress on the top floor dies (making my building World Famous In India ;)), then the actor in the building right next door (a married one, may I add) gets involved in a sex scandal, and now - DIAMONDS are washing up on shore right behind us?!!! :D

WE WILL LIVE ON FOR ALL OF ETERNITY!!!!

;D

So... What is it, just the CHANGE in weather that's making me feel all woozy and bad, or the weather itself? It's started raining now. I can remember feeling "bad" when it started to rain before, and missing the summer and all, but then what? Did I get over it and then feel badly when it stopped again? I can't IMAGINE it, but... it is *slightly* possible.
I'll have to keep track of this now...


A Brief Guide To Seasons in (My Part of) India

The Indian year is divided into 2 main seasons: Monsoon (lasting from around June to October), and Summer (from November to May).
Monsoon is an extremely wet time of year which brings about mixed feelings - on the one hand the greenery is something to behold! But on the other hand, that mush on your shoe when you stepped outside to go to work is quite another.
Summer is altogether much drier, and is further divided into 2 parts: Summer (warm, sweaty, vacation-time) and That-Time-That-For-Intents-And-Purposes-Looks-Like-Summer-Except-It's-A-Few-Degrees-Cooler (TTTFIFPLLSEIAFDC) so there really is no point in giving it a different name. Some people prefer to call it by the name "Vin-tur" but others feel it is unnecessary.

*

Aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!

I have an interview with LUG (Level Up Games) tomorrow!!!

::dies::

::wakes up::

Well I can't be dead for an interview, can I?

:)



I think I'm going to explode...

You know the thing that made me cry, really CRY?

The fact that that BEAUTIFUL scene at the end of Return of the Jedi when the Obiwan, Yoda and Anakin are standing together looking lovingly over the celebrating crowd is forever going to be connected to that- that- bastardization!

Don't get me wrong: the second part of the movie was great! It really did tie up lose ends and made a lot of sense as far as his heart-breaking descent into madness. But the first part was just a- well if the word basterdization didn't already pertain to something else... I'm going to have to think up a new word now :)

Ghost in The Shell Movie!!!!

Coming to my TV!

JUNE 4TH!!!!!

::dies::



Oh yeah, and my dad got me an mp3 player from Singapore for some reason. I think it's because of my first class in the exams. Whatever! :)

Injuries I inflicted on myself during Star Wars III

by Owen Goodyear

1. Fractured index finger, right hand

Sustained in self-defence during the ghastly "banter" between Ewan McGregor and Hayden Christensen in the dogfight scene. The finger was merely badly sprained until I realised that McGregor, star of genuinely good movies such as Trainspotting, was being outacted by R2D2, the star-speckled and unconvincing backdrop and his own beard.

2. Dislocated kneecap, left leg

Caused by violent convulsions brought about by the scripting of the first love scene between Natalie Portman and Christensen. Current theories suggest that my knee was performing actions consistent with running away, out of the cinema, to another cinema in another land, where a better film might be playing. Sadly I was wedged into an Ewok-sized seat in a soulless Odeon box, hence the damage caused to my patella and surrounding tissue.

3. Undisclosed male-specific injuries

While the nature of these injuries is confidential, for fear of corrupting children, I can confirm that these were self-inflicted at a steadily increasing rate unpon the dawning realisation that even Natalie Portman could be made to look pasty-faced and unattractive, therefore removing much of the joy of being a heterosexual male.

4. Spiral fractures, both legs

Sustained while attempting, still wedged in the aforementioned seat of misery and disappointment, to perform the high-octane fight-scene acrobatics that Christopher Lee's character Count Dooku should have been engaged in had he, the film's only capable actor, not been killed within five seconds of appearing on-screen by that Christensen brat despite Dooku supposedly being a mighty warrior.

5. Severed left hand

Removed after the eleventh or twelfth lightsabre fight ending in someone getting their hand chopped off. It seemed to be the done thing.

6. Punctured lung

Caused by stabbing myself repeatedly in the chest to quell the rising urge to vote Republican, brought about by a reaction against the horribly ham-fisted political commentary in one or other of those tedious Council scenes.

7. Gouged eye, right

Lost during the dual lightsabre fights between McGregor, Christensen, McDiarmid and General Grievous, probably in the mistaken belief that no lightsabre battle could actually be actively boring and that therefore the problem must have lain with my own eyes.

8. Shattered pelvis

Thrown at the screen in a desperate yet futile attempt to prevent Hayden bastarding Christensen mouthing the agonisingly inane line "the best day of my life" on hearing that his illicit wife is up the duff.

9. Fractured skull (six places)

Prompted by Christensen's line "I'm overwhelmed", delivered in such wooden fashion that I slammed my head repeatedly into a nearby wall in order that I might suffer hallucinations from the cerebral damage and thus actually be overwhelmed. By something. Anything. The gap between the line's content and delivery was so great I was forced to redress the balance through the medium of cranial trauma.

10. Third-degree burns over 35% of my body

Self-inflicted during the scene where Anakin slides slowly towards the lava and catches fire; I was envious and wanted to die.

11. Severed self-respect

I paid to see this. I paid George Lucas to see this.

Spoiler Warning: plot or ending details above

Yeah, the rainbows really set the tone.

*

Problem solved!

I don't think that Cactus place is going to call me back after all! So, yippee!



:|

I was still smiling when I walked out the door though. Maybe if I'd looked more "crestfallen" they might've taken pity on me and asked me back :)